It's been awhile.

oh hey there internet.... didn't see you there.


LOL. JK! YOU CONSUME MY LIFE.

It's been so long I don't know if I still know how to form words and sentences and paragraphs.

In other news....

found out yesterday I made the dean's list. that's pretty exciting.

ALSO I'M DONE MY FIRST YEAR OF UNIVERSITY!!!!!


That is super duper exciting!!!

It went by really, really fast. I loved every minute of it.

Everything from the "no school on fridays" to the staying up with Kyle and Haley for days at a time watching movies, dancing and finishing essays.

Good times.

I almost can't wait to start second year.

I guess that's a good sign... Usually I don't look forward to school but it's probably different because I actually enjoy what I'm taking.

Don't get me wrong, I loved High School.

Great friends and great times.

Minus the last couple of months.

Stress and heartbreak.

Good times. LOL JK.

But in all seriousness I loved this school year. I made so many great friends and met so many interesting people.

I love my program and am so incredibly happy that I changed my mind on teaching. I think I would be a good teacher but I don't think I would love it as much as I love Journalism.

This is definitely one of the best decisions I have ever made.

I'm really glad that this year is over though.

Made some mistakes.

Hurt some people.

There are definitely moments this past year where I wish I could go back in time and kick myself in the face... but oh well.

All a part of life I guess.

I really should go get my hair cut.

Mullet?

I don't think I could rock it as good as Luke or Austin.

ALSO!!!! I leave for Chile in less than a week and I am so friggen excited!!!!!!!!

2 weeks of sun, warmth, and escape.

I love going on mission trips/vacations because it gets you out of your routine.

That's one thing that I really don't like.

Routine.

It's boring.

Chile should be an awesome time.

It's late and I'm going on an adventure to Drumheller tomorrow.

Later Internet.

I should really go to bed.

It's been awhile since I last posted anything so I'm gonna try something one of my friends did,

11:47 - sitting on my coach, listening to 40 Day Dream by Edward Sharpe and The magnetic Zeroes.

11:48 - Wow that last minute went by really really fast. Thanks music!

11:49 - #Kony2012 this movement has intrigued me. The video was awesome.

11:50 - My mouth is really dry. Like really really dry. But our Brita jug is empty and I don't wanna refill it. First world pains.

11:51 - I'm scared that If I go get some water that I'll have to pee... I don't wanna go upstairs.

11:52 - I can't decide!!! I should invent a mini, portable toilet. I'll make millions.

11:53 - Millions... mill... onions? That's what I thought of when I looked at the word millions. I wonder if that's like that thing where the middle letters are scrambled but you can still read them... probably not.

11:54 - I tihnk I'm gnona try it. It's kndia hrad to tpye lkie tihs.

11:55 - Gave in. Got myself a glass of water. Typing like that was waaaaay too difficult. Probably just because I'm tired.

11:56 - I wonder if we have any new episodes of How I Met Your Mother recorded?

11:57 - nope. Oh well. America's funniest Home videos is on. close enough. What if Neil Patrick Harris hosted AFV? I think that would be legen - wait for it - (insert "d" word related to home movies here)

11:58 - To Troll a Predator is hilarious. I kinda wanna dress as Batman and meet child predators at playgrounds. I think I could take a predator. Especially dressed as Batman.

11:59 - To Abed: You Are Batman Now.

12:00 - I wanna be Batman. If I was rich I would turn myself into a vigilante crime fighter. It could be fun. Beats writing essays.

12:01 - Batman's a pretty cool hero because he doesn't have super powers. Just loads and loads of money. Which I guess is kinda a super power in our society.

12:02 - but still! I think I could do it... if I were rich. I should start a "make Keegan a super hero fund"

12:03 - I will accept donations of cash, cheque, or superhero gadget. But it has to be a high quality gadget. Like Q worthy gadget.

12:04 - My goodness, this water tastes heavenly. What is the taste of water? I wanna taste a water flavoured candy. Maybe I'll invent that too.

12:05 - HAHAHAHAHAH an old lady just got owned on a box after walking across a whole balance beam.

12:06 - I'm a terrible person. If  saw that in real life I wouldn't laugh though... does that justify it?

12:07 - This is an incredible playlist. Step 1: "Blalock's Indie/Rock Playlist: Best of '09" Google it. Step 2: Download it.  Step 3 : Listen Step 4: Have an "eargasm" Step 5: Repeat steps 3-4

12:08 - I read an article about why songs get stuck in your head today.

12:09 - I don't remember what it said though. Sorry Internet. I remember it was interesting though. And if you felt a certain way when hearing a song those same feelings can cause you to hear it in your head.

12:10 - "And all you can hear, is the sound of your own heart." I've decided I really like this song.

12:11 - I also read a letter that the worst rated player in Madden '07 wrote to John Madden. It was hilarious. The guy just cussed out Madden and made hilarious comparisons between himself and a braindead insect based on his Madden rating.

12:12 - That would be so demoralizing.... Especially because the guy knew he was better than other players. One had just lost his starting position to him.

12:13 - I'd be chapped. Good thing I'm not good enough at sports to be in video games. Unless they make a video game about being adorable and awesome. Then I'd get a rating of at least 96.

12:14 - Is it bad that my mom told me who the next Bachelorette is gonna be and I got excited? (Dad, if you're reading this I meant to type MMA event but I messed up and was too lazy to backspace.......... I promise...)

12:15 - Symphonies by Dan Black is fantastic. I first heard it when Kid Cudi rapped over it... The original version is super chill.

12:16 - I really wanna go snowboarding again. I need money for that. "Let's get Keegan snowboarding" fund. Start donating.

12:17 - Actually I wanna go camping. Anyone down for a camping trip come summer time? Could be a pretty good time.

12:18 - I wish I had more linear thoughts. Actually, I take that back. I like how my thoughts function. Sometimes when I speak I have to explain step by step how I got to where I ended up.

12:19 - Like the Wikipedia game. Oh man. Wikipedia's SOPA protest. The internet sucked that day. I remember because I was especially bored and there was NOTHING to do.

12:20 - I would not have been able to function in an internetless world.

12:21 - HOLY CRAP I JUST HEARD THE SONG WHERE THE CHORUS FROM THAT HOODY ALLEN SONG COMES FROM. "Gotta get it get it big time, gotta get it get it get it, until you just can't get it no more" It's called Tightrope by Yeasayer

12:22 - HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH SOME GUY JUST FELL OFF HIS ATV AND IT RAN HIM OVER. He walked away. I'm allowed to laugh.

12:23 - My hair feels different. I like the immediate post haircut feeling. I wonder if girls feel the same way after they trim their hair? I'm glad I'm not a girl. Childbirth. It's like peeing a stump. No thanks.

12:24 - Okay everyone needs to hear this playlist. I am so happy right now. I wish I could play music... or sing.

12:25 - MMMMMM strawberry commercial. I want strawberries now.

12:26 - We have no strawberries. I knew we didn't but I thought that maybe there was hope. "If you can believe it, you can achieve it."

12:27 - I wish that worked with food. I can believe the crap outta any type of delicious food. Especially if it made the food magically appear. That would be great.

12:28 - Now I feel kinda sleepy.

12:29 - sleepy

12:30 - sleepy

12:31 - still sleepy

12:32 - Okay AFV is still as hilarious as I remember. Maybe It's 'cause I'm tired and things get more and more funny when you're tired.

12:33 - or it might be because this bro tried to use his friend and a plank of wood as a ramp on a slip and slide. How did you think that was going to turn out?

12:34 - Are people always that dumb?

12:35 - I shouldn't be talking. I'm sure I can trump that with one of my gloriously stupid endeavors.

12:36 - I really want some lucky charms. That stuff is fantastic no matter when. With or without milk. It takes true discipline to not eat only the marshmallows.

12:37 - I'm so incredibly awful at Scrabble.

12:38 - Like horrendously bad.

12:39 - It's really cold in my house. My Snuggie is downstairs. First World Pains. Again. My life really isn't that hard. I just act like it is.

12:40 - I need to delete some people off facebook and twitter. I haven't talked to them in ages and they fill up my newsfeed/twitterfeed with pointless stuff that I don't care about.

12:41 - My eyes hurt. I think I'm tired.

12:42 - I really like british bands.

12:43 - I wish I could fly. Or had an Ironman suit. That would be radical.

12:44 - It should rain. I like the smell of post rain. Everything smells so fresh. I love it.

12:45 - If I was a bird I would love post rain storm 'cause all the worms would be right there on the sidewalk. It's an All-You-Can-Eat buffet right there.

12:46 - I'm kinda hungry.

12:47 - I can't eat now. I'll get fat and lose my beautiful physique.

Later Internet.

Do you feel?

We're all walking around with these glossy eyes.

"I'm just tired," we say.

 But you know what?

 It's a load of crap.

Yes, we are tired, but it's not from lack of sleep. We are tired of waking up with nothing to look forward to, tired of going to bed exhausted after doing a million things we find no enjoyment in doing. We're tired of this void, this emptiness that looms over us even though our days are packed. We're tired of the loneliness that presses down on us even though we're surrounded by dozens of people. So why can't we just say it? Humans are so afraid to look into each other's eyes and say "I am unhappy, I am broken, I am hopeless and fallible."

 We've been conditioned to associate pain with weakness, sadness with coldness, loneliness with worthlessness, difference with disease.

Why don't we feel more?

We all feel... why don't we show it?

I've cried in front of some of my closest friends. I'm the type of guy who wears his heart on his sleeve.
When something is bothering me the people around me can tell.

Yet I still try and hide it....

It's dumb really.

We're humans.

Humans feel.

So I say screw that fear.

Screw forced smiles and polite handshakes and I'm fine, thank yous. Screw the fear of crying in public, screw the fake chipper voice, screw the lies we spit out to cover up our problems.

We are not metal, we are flesh and bone. Our boiled blood courses through our cold, clammy hands. We are intricate and beautiful and we should never hide our human parts.

 Because if we do, then what's left to show?

Need to want less.

When I was 6 I wanted a new bike.

When I was 10 I wanted a dog.

When I was 14 I wanted to fit in. I wanted friends.

When I was 16 I wanted a car.

When I was 17 I wanted a girl named Elle. Or more appropriately when I was 15, 16, and 17.

Now I want Everything.

I only need enough to survive.

It’s funny because everything I used to want I got. I’ve gotten a few new bikes, I have a dog, I’m pretty sure I have friends, I have a car, I had a girl.

Some things took longer for me to achieve than others but I have been able to get everything I’ve wanted.

Now those wants have changed or they’re gone.

I still have a bike and my dog is with my parents. The people I call my friends are not the same people I called my friends when I was 14. My car is broken down.

Anyone who knows me at all knows how much my want for that girl has changed.

I know that my wants and my needs have changed a lot. 

Right now all I’m trying to do is survive.

Survival.

That's all.

Later Internet.

#StudentLyfe P.S. follow me on Twitter (@keegandalf)

The end of the semester is so incredibly close.

I'm super excited for Christmas break.

Friends, Family, Relaxation, Snowboarding...


and REAL FOOD!

Living on a budget is not always the funnest thing. I'm actually surprised at how quickly I adapted to life without having my parents there to do everything for me.

Well, not everything. But the important things.

Like cooking and buying groceries.

I think what I'm looking forward to the most has gotta be the chance to slow down and take a break from everything.

Well I guess not everything.

I'm most likely going to be working a lot of hours over christmas break. But I'll get a break from research papers and annotated bibliographies and projects worth half your grade.

I'm actually incredibly stressed out by school right now.

Which is saying a lot because I don't get stressed out to easily.

Take grade 10 for example. I did 70 units in 8 days in june.

For those of you readers that didn't go to Carroll, that's the equivalent of 2 five credit courses and 2/3rds of a three credit course.

I wasn't stressed nearly as much as I am now.

I just can't wait for it to all be over so I can prepare to do it again next semester... and the semester after that... and the semester after that... and the semester after that.... and the semester after that.... and the semester after that... and the semester after that.

And then for the rest of my life.

Awesome.

Except I'm actually really excited to see where I end up in the future.

Okay I gotta not be blogging and finish my plethora of projects.

I'm in essay writing mode.

Mixed with caffeine and apple cider.

Later Internet.